(this blog is actually from Oct 9, 2009) Today was a day of WOW! This entire week has been a week of WOW! The morning started off with an expectancy. An expectancy of something, I didn’t know what, when, how, why or where but I knew something. If you know me you know that almost nothing suprises me but everything suprises me! (you’ll get it later ). This morning when I made it to the office I felt overwhelmed before I even started working. I’ve come to the realization that I must write things down and put appointments on the calendar because I will forget. Anyway, not knowing where the feeling was coming from I went ahead and started my day. I began working on serveral things that i’d promised people the day before and hadn’t worked on. As I began to work and listen to the gospel station on the net, the day really started. The first phone call of the day was someone wanting to pick up an order from a week ago. The next call (maybe 10 minutes later was someone wanting an order filled asap with a time deadline -today. The next call was from someone wanting another order filled, with a time deadline – today! Then, let’s not forget the work I had already promised someone I would do by the early a.m. of today! Now i’m really asking God, “How am I going to do all this?” Well let me tell you…..He worked it all out, I finished everyone’s stuff, in the midst of all that God ministered to a couple of people through me, ministered to me through an awesome woman of God (Hi my new sis!!!) and put out a couple of fires too. But all that was just the setup for the true word / revelation of the day.
As I was talking with my new friend in my office, she asked me something no one has asked me throughout this entire transition of the past two years. She asked me if I was losing interest in what I was doing. Even though i’ve not been asked this, i recalled at that moment how i’ve defended my love for what I do but never addressed it like that! Once I thought about it I had to reply, “Yes I am”. That hit me like a ton of bricks! Why? Because I love what I do but the calling on my life is so much more important right now that my love for it doesn’t cut it anymore. My love for God has superceeded my love for what I want and my every thought is making God’s vision given to me to birth become a reality! It wasn’t until that very moment that i really understood the struggle i’ve had inside all this time! (i’ll have to tell you all that over a real cup of coffee – face to face – not typing ). My friend planted that seed in me this afternoon and an old friend of mine came along later this evening and watered that seed. This friend was one who always told me I was suppose to be doing better than all the rest of the crew – because we all started our businesses around the same time and it seemed that mine took off the fastest (i guess) – but today his word for me was totally different. In short he told me that someone told him long time ago that a job was a crutch that would keep you from your true destiny. He said that i would never reach destiny if I wasn’t giving it 100% and working a job, I’m not giving it 100%. That I needed to let all else go and follow my destiny! Coming from him that was a true word of confirmation and edification. That was God sending word to me that if I’d step out on faith just like i’d done with the printing business when he told me to start it, he’d handle the rest. Thank you my friend for watering that seed that was planted! I now know what I must do! Now God will get the increase because of these two obedient vessels.
Neither of us knew what today held, we were just going about our day as usual and God set up all the devine appointments, times and conversations. God, I will forever praise you because there is none other! Yall he is our Jehovah Jirah! That’s all we need – God!